The notes I jotted down from Troy’s message on March 20th read like this:
– You have to know who you are before you can give to others. If not your motivation for giving gets messed up and becomes manipulative
– Service can serve the ego in order to find validity and value
– Temptation to conform
– May have to visit this stage a few times
– Might have to try on a few personas to find out who you really are
– What they need? Space. Give them lots of space
While I identify with the wanderer journey on a very personal level I was struck by the fact that Quest itself may be on a wanderer journey.
I wasn’t around in the beginning but if I understand correctly those that formed Quest left what they knew, which was similar to what they’d always known and ventured out to start something new. Not knowing what form it would take or where the journey would take them.
So as I listened to Troy and reviewed my notes later I felt that this was also a message for the community called Quest.
You have to know who you are before you can give to others. Boy – this is counterintuitive for a Christian community. It feels selfish and self centered and goes against the grain of everything we were taught in the past. But, as his second point stated, ‘if not (if you don’t know who you are) then your motivation for giving gets messed up and becomes manipulative. I’ve been around churches all my life, and all I’m going to say about this is that it’s pervasive. I’m not overly critical of them because it’s extremely easy to fall into this and I think we all do it – a lot. But, it’s a thing.
Service can serve the ego in order to find validity and value
I’m sure as a forming group this will be a temptation for some time to come. It would be great to resist it. It will take effort to resist it and acknowledgement when the temptation comes.
Might have to try on a few personas to find out who you really are
Just like the teenager that Troy described who experiments with different personas to see which one (or more) work for them, so Quest may do the same thing. Freedom is the order of the day. Give each other freedom and give yourselves freedom to try things or ‘personas’ and then to decide whether they have traction or not. If they don’t work, try something else. We get so serious about ourselves, don’t we? I hope we stay free in this experimental stage for as long as possible. With so many talented people in our midst we may have a few personas emerge.
What they need? Space.
Let’s give each other lots of space. Space to try new things and to be who we really are and to change our mind about that if we like. To re-invent ourselves and our rituals and practices as a spiritual community. To allow new people to inform the whole as they join us. To try new things and to participate with others as they express themselves as part of the community.
I think as a group we’re on a kind of Wanderer Journey.
What do you think?